Tabula Rasa

It has been a difficult few days. As you know, I withdrew from my graduate program. The next morning at 3:00 a.m. my boyfriend’s aunt died. Her funeral is tomorrow at 12:30 p.m. in Beaufort. 

I know I have been difficult to be around the past few days. Its been an amalgamation of hormones (ladies, you know what I mean) and stress. My mother and my boyfriend have really taken the brunt of my current instability. I admit, abashedly, this situation has really shown a few of my issues that I’ve put on the back burner for too long. 

I definitely have some control issues, and this lack of financial control is forcing me to rely on faith more than I am normally comfortable. This sounds new age-y and cheesy but to be perfectly honest this is the opportunity to grow. I don’t need to be afraid. I have a true blank slate here. I have so many directions I could go. Its funny back in high school this terrified me, now it is exhilarating, if I can just let go.



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